sad, sad heart <3

I just had to write about my friend Noelle and the lil girl she lost :0( It was last Tuesday morning that Noelle (who I worked with in the ER at Fairview...she is a peds nurse) lost her 5 yr old daughter Ainsley. I was SO heartbroken when I found out. Her and her husband have Hailey who is 7 and Wesley who is 6 and Ainsley was 5. She passed away in the ER. I'm not sure of the whole story or what exactly happened. I know that she had juvinile arthritis and that ha weakened her immune system. I went to the wake on Friday evening. It was the saddest thing ever. How tragic for such a young, vibrant family to have lost such a precious little life. As I was signing the guest book, Hailey was hugging some people in line behind me and she was telling them that Ainsley had a "pink case" and that they all had pink on cuz it was her favorite. She looked so sweet and just like she was sleeping. Hailey was standing by Ainsley's casket and telling us about what each thing in there with her meant. It was so sweet. They also had a table set up with all of her favorite things, including a pair of pink pjs and her dance costumes and shoes. There was also a book sitting on the table called "I Wonder What You Do on Your First Day in Heaven" by Phoebe Welsh. What an amazing book for children. I just thought it was so incredible. I thought a lot about Riley and Addison when I was there. It was such a surreal moment. I can never imagine having to say "goodbye" to either of them. I just wish I could hug Noelle every time I thought of them. My heart breaks over and over for the pain that they are going thru. I just wanted to write about it because it is constantly on my mind ....